Archive for April, 2010


I often frequent a photography forum on the internet and I gotta say the women there are pretty amazing. Wonderful photographers, hobbyists and women. Although I don’t post there much, I do peak at people’s beautiful artwork. One woman posted a gorgeous maternity picture once, of her sitting on a bridge. I thought nothing of it other than it was a lovely photo.

Months passed until recently, where people had “Praying for Elijah” images in their signatures.

“What is this all about?”, I wondered. I clicked the image to only be brought to the blog of the woman who had that lovely maternity portrait that her husband snapped of her. I began feverishly reading catching up on her story and the story of her son, who was diagnosed in utero with Trisomy 13. It wasn’t likely he would be full term, or if he was, that he would live for very long. Terribly sad story.

But what struck me most, was the love that this mother had for her child…knowing she could lose him any minute during the pregnancy…and when he was carried to term, she was able to give birth to him, knowing he wouldn’t live long. She held him and loved him like any other child would want to be loved and he breathed the breath of life – the air and smelled her scent. Reading her story, was heart wrenching – but amazing and inspirational.

The women on the photography forum decided to put together a book of inspirational photographs to help her with her healing in losing her son – things that would remind her of him. The photographs have been beautiful. I wanted to submit one so badly, but could not think of what to photograph – then today it hit me, as I was putting some craft things away…I stumbled upon some cupid wings I made for Little Magoo…and pulled a feather off of there…

I hope this book helps her to heal and lets her know how much her son loved her for giving him life, even if only for hours.


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The Robe

I feel like I have writer’s block lately. I can’t explain it at all. I don’t know if it is the lack of fresh air or just feeling overwhelmed by life or just the sheer exhaustion of still having to get up at night for feedings. Maybe a combination? I don’t know…

Most days I am so exhausted lately that I don’t even feel like getting out of my robe. Yesterday I did get out of my robe and found myself laying my head on a large teddy bear of Little Magoo’s in his play room, while he played and Baby Magoo played as well. I may or may not have closed my eyes to rest them.

This crazy New England weather has been something else. Warm and beautiful one day and freezing and windy the next…ahhhh, New England. I was glad to see the sun today though. The leaves beginning to bloom and the growth all around. Everywhere I look, growth. On the trees, the flowers, in my own home with my children. Growth everywhere. Lilacs blooming (one of my favorites) and green green green everywhere! The month of May is creeping in – my favorite month by far.

Today I busted out my nail polish. I can’t remember the last time I painted my nails. Of course by the end of the day today, I was reminded why…as the sad remnants of black nail polish hang on for life on my fingernails.

If you don’t like feet, please don’t look at the next photograph.

Some people hate feet…or finger-toes like mine. At any rate, I painted my toes a happy pink. No, not perfect, but it was fun. Fun toes. Mind you, it’s been a long long time since I have been “girly” like this. I’m not a girly girl, but I used to wear makeup and paint my toes and nails. It made me feel good…and this week I have been trying to do little things like this for myself.

I also put my hair in braids today and watched Little Magoo grin from ear to ear when he saw my hair like that. He’s so used to just seeing it thrown up in a clip – he thought I looked good. Mr. Magoo even mentioned to me today that he thought I had been in a good mood lately.

I guess when you do little things to make yourself happy, it really shows and makes those around you happy too.

I’m glad I got out of myself today and out of my robe.

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Little Bits of Happy

It’s the little things sometimes that make you happy.

I haven’t been able to buy new clothes recently – I mean what’s the point? Two years ago I was pregnant, then my body changed completely, only to get pregnant again…not to mention every dollar I have to my name goes to my kids. Isn’t that always the way? The life of a mom, I suppose – as much as you want to spend the money on yourself, you end up spending it on your kids. Even if they have everything under the sun already.

Lord knows, I need new clothes though…but I don’t have a job outside of the home – so again, what’s the point…

Anyways today Mr. Magoo and I took a trip to the store today with the kids. I had been eyeing a pair of aviator sunglass over the weekend…and well…when I want something or want to accomplish something – I get this “bee in my bonnet” and won’t quit until it’s solved. So we went back to the store so I could look at the sunglasses. Not that I even need them, but I wanted to get something for myself, which is rare these days. I found them and tried them on….

Oh boy, did I look ridiculous, that’s for sure. I was totally bummed, as I had an image in a my head of what I wanted…don’t you hate that?

So I continued to look around and finally settled on a sweet little pair:

Some may think they are a little young for me, but I really like how they look – kinda retroy, if that is even a word.

I can’t wait to wear them around. It totally made my day to buy these – my little happy thing for today.

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Photo Tag

I was recently tagged by Mama V. over at Adventures of a Mom – so here goes…although I don’t think I will be tagging any friends…since I do not have many.

The rules are simple;
1) Go to your photo files, select the 8Th photo folder.

2) Select the 8Th photo in that folder.

3) Post that photo along with the story behind it

4) Then challenge 8 blogging friends to do the same!

I’ve actually posted this photo before – just Little Magoo looking at a baby toy…look at him studying that thing…

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Here is my “smile” entry – it is an older photo of Little Magoo in his crib (he’s 2 years old now). I have just always loved this photo. From the mischievous look in his eye to the two little teeth sticking out – makes ME smile every time I look at it.

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Mother’s Day

Every year my mother asks her children to write her a poem for Mother’s Day and so far I have been good to my word. Here is this year’s:

Apology Letter

Dear Mom,

I’d like to apologize

For I can now see clearly, through your eyes.

I’m sorry for ruining your body that way

But in the womb I could not stay

I’m sorry for crying

For fibbing and whining

For tantrums, for slamming my door

For throwing my plate and food on the floor

I’m sorry for not napping

For waking in the night

For having siblings with which I would fight

I’m sorry for toys strewn on the floor, on the couch, on the table

I’m sure I picked them up as much as I was able

I’m sorry for not making my bed

For ripping your glasses off of your head

I’m sorry for lots of diapers that needed changing

And noses wiped and lots of bathing

For broken items that you held so dear

For biting you, kicking you, pulling your hair

There, does that cover it all?

No wait, I’m sorry for taking a fall

For getting sick on my bed

For all the mean things that I said

I’m sorry for coming home late and making you worry

Oh Mom, I’m so…SO, sorry.

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Yard Work

Today we attempted to do a little yard work outside – trying to pick up all the branches and sticks in our yard. We have been neglectful of our lawn this year…while everyone else in the neighborhood has been diligently taking advantage of the warm New England days to make sure their lawns are in pristine condition, Mr. Magoo has been busy working, doing school work, running errands…and well, I’ve been busy doing laundry, dishes, changing diapers, giving baths, making meals, dealing with nursing sessions. And so our lawn, in turn, is suffering.

While Baby Magoo napped, Little Magoo and I headed outside. It was promising, picking up all the branches that had fallen during the massive windstorm we had – it lasted for a little bit…until Little Magoo discovered the dandelions.

I showed him how to blow on them…figuring our lawn couldn’t get any worse than it was…

He did really well with getting the seeds off of the dandelions.

He was certainly very excited about it all…

…until his mouth got just a little too close…

Dandelion FAIL.

Poor Little Magoo. Yard work isn’t his thing. Especially the weed pulling.

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